wow. i just got done reading some of my past blogs and i feel like i have changed a lot since then. it's been a really long time since i've last written on here but i feel like it's time.
last time i was on here i was writing depressive things to my ex-boyfriends that were not any use in my life and that didn't help my life whatsoever. that has changed.
i am now at Calvin College in Grand Rapids, Michigan and i love it here. God is so good!! i have met some of the most amazing people here at Calvin. my brother came here for a semester and he didn't like it so that made me nervous in coming here cause i'm a lot like him. after i made a decision to come here i knew that i could make my own story and wouldn't have to start where my brother left off.
when i came here to visit i knew it was the place for me because i just felt so at home here that it was where God wanted me to be. not only have my friends changed but some relationships and me in general have changed.
my relationships that have changed would be with my parents. i have grown a lot closer to them ever since i have been here and i think that has a lot to do with the fact that i am 7 hours away from home. i rarely ever get to see them and i think that has taken a toll on both of us. i also have grown closer to my brother matthew and melissa and cayden. they are the furthest away yet i still keep in touch with them like crazy. i love them so much and miss them truly the most. my other brother derek and lindsey and bella i have not stayed as close to because we have all been busy. it was so much easier when we were in the same town to stay in touch because we could stop by each other's houses anytime. when i'm 7 hours away that makes it harder with them both working and bella not being the biggest fan of skype. another relationship that has changed since i left is the relationship between me and Leah Mills. she's the best friend anyone could ever ask for. I want everyone to know that this girl is the most amazing girl i have ever met. she's mostly always in a good mood and takes life as it is handed to her and twists it to be good. i love her so freaking much. she has found time for me and we text almost every day. some relationsihps that i have seen that have changed for the worse is that i have grown further apart from a lot of friends that i wish that i could keep in touch with. my friend gophy and i talk every so often but i miss sitting in her living room watching 13 movies in 2 days straight cause we're snowed in. i miss lauren lorae because we always have the best of times and she's always there for me. i also miss briana hofman because she is closer to me now but we still can't ever find time to see eachother. in general, some people that i wish i would have kept closer to are all my high school friends. it is hard with them going to school and me going to school to keep in touch but their tweets keep me going. all of these people i love and all of these people i will always love, but it is just hard in the hustle and bustle of life to find time. all of these people exceed the description of amazing and are way awesome. they are what keep me living. they keep me sane and i can't wait to catch up with them again this summer. i know it's hard now but we can make time.
the ways that i have changed for the better since i've been away at college is that i have learned responsibility. i have been job hunting, kept my studies up, and i have been more adament about going to class than i usually am. when i was going to classes anywhere else, i would skip class on purpose just so that i didn't have to go. here i want to go to class and if i don't then i have someone sign me in so i don't get docked. ;) another way that i have changed is that i have let go a lot of my drinking habits. when i was at school or home i would drink almost every weekend but now that i am here and i have found the right people to hang out with i have realized that i don't need that in my life. don't get me wrong, i definitely tried it but it just isn't my thing right now. my most important thing that i have brought up to my life is that i have learned to let go. i don't ever EVER think about my ex-boyfriend anymore. i used to sit in my room and think about him and find reasons to text him and now i never do that. i have stood up to people that try to use me. and i am ok with not talking to people from my class that i didn't care for.
in conclusion, i have found some of the most amazing friends here that i could have ever asked for. hannah smallegan, amy hinkle, matt dewitt, tyler mink, josh tilma, tickles, dan arendsen, evan bronson, plow, tyler mink, anand. i would not give up these kids for anything. they are some of the best. :) they always know how to have a good time and always know how to make me smile.
