weight loss

so i just started doing

nutrisystem

it's the greatest thing

i've ever tried

they send me enough

food for a month

and it's so easy

because i'm able to make it and go

they are quick little meals

and they taste better than medifast

i love this system

normally i'm not much of a cook

so i'm all about the quick meals

they are easy

put in the microwave

quick little meals

ahh! i love them

i would recommend it

to anyone out there looking

for a real diet

you should try this

i feel better about myself

i'm not afraid to walk around in my bra

i don't feel as self-conscious

it's sooooo great!

also, i've been doing

the jillian michaels workout videos

it's sad that weight loss

is what takes the self-confidence boost

but i do feel better

i've been learning to drink more water

in various different ways

and it cleans out my system

enough to quicken the process

i can't wait for spring break

hopefully it's warm enough

to take my nephew to the pool

and to get a good tan

on the other hand,

i have been applying for jobs

left and right

still hanging and waiting

i'm on the phone

with a potential

i hope to get a job soon

i'm getting desperate

and i want to find a serving job

i would actually

like a coaching job

but none of those are to be found

so i'm resorting to as many

waitressing jobs i can

please please please!

i ask for your prayer as i keep searching

hoping the Lord brings me to

a good job soon!

thanks all!!!!!

God bless.

a best friend?

today i found out

my best friend is in a relationship

see this best friend is different

from any other best friend

he is closer than a best friend

he calls me his little sister

you see we have this pact

if neither of us are married by 25

we are going to get married

our parents are friends

we don't have to worry about

meeting the parents

i have dinner at his house sometimes

and my parents love him

it is perfect

here's the problem

he is at UNI

i am in michigan

we are miles and miles apart

and now he's in a relationship

i talked to him tonight

he said he's really happy

i WANT to be happy for him

but it's hard when

the jealous monkey is all over me

i hate it

sometimes

i secretly wish we could fast forward

to 4 years from now

i am just so comfortable with him

i can be me and not be judged

his family is like my family

it's amazing

i just hope it will never change

when he gets a wife

i pray for him and he is happy

sometimes i just wish

he was happy with me : )

here is what's on my mind

he's great and the Lord has a plan

man pursue woman

i've been feeling really good lately

here's why!

i have decided to

give my relationship worries

to the LORD

one night i was just sick of it all

and the worry was making me sick

also it's making me tired

i'm ready to give it up

i know the Lord has someone

amazing out there for me

he's going to be mine

i can't wait to find the man of my dreams

and one day he will come to me

i deserve to be pursued

every girl deserves to be pursued

i know no one likes rejection

but all the girls out there in the world

deserve to have their prince charming

find them and come to their rescue

the next morning

i got a Bible verse on my phone

here's what the Lord said

"in God's wise plan, when you married,

the two of you became one person in his sight."

Malachai 2:15

after reading this

i knew i had nothing to worry about

knowing i can trust the Lord

with anything

it is very reassuring

and puts me at peace

thank you Lord!!

hope you're all having a good week

and have a good weekend!!!

till next time

God's love