this dirty funk

today was one of those days
i was in a funk most of the day
sitting around watching proposals
looking them up on youtube
thinking about how i can't wait
till that is me in the position
there were some who said no
and some who said yes
it was interesting
to see all the various
cute ways men popped the question
some were really cheesy
but some were really romantic
all i could think about
is how much i can't wait
to be in that situation
i got a little scared
cause i am afraid it will never happen
but tonight as i was eating with my friend
she told me this great thing
"the Lord would not give you that passion
if he wasn't going to fulfill it"
i do have a passion
to find my "prince charming"
and to share my life with him
i just can't wait
it was crazy though
cause i couldn't even imagine
a certain boy being the one
usually i can,
but not this time
this time was a lot different
i have options yes
but i just don't even know where
to start with all this
i feel it's so much easier
to trust the LORD with all of it
it's hard but that quote helped a lot
she was told it from a friend
and passed it on to me
it could not have been better timing
the LORD is good
i know he will provide
he would not torture me
he would not put us through
more heartbreak intentionally


one positive in my life lately
is i was asked to talk to the ms
girls at my alma mater
she asked me to give her a little 
e-mail about purity and any insight
i had and i sent it to her but the Lord
moved her to talk about something else
and then she asked me to talk
to them directly when i come home
i have never been more excited
just another example
the LORD has a reason
for everything
it's because of the heartbreak
from the past relationship
that i am able to pass on 
my knowledge to make the girls'
minds sharper and more aware


once again,
the LORD is good
hope this finds you all well
have a splendid week!
feliz semana
praying for you all
love you all!!!