realization

i told you i was going to avoid you for a bit
i can't...
i realized that i have to CONDITION myself
hang out with you and convince myself we're just friends
it's easier that way
it's hard but i can do it
the Lord will give me strength
you're so great as a friend
i feel so relieved
my friends are here for me
they keep reminding me that i deserve THE BEST
whether or not that's you
then my roommate
said that you might consider me later
cause i have planted that thought in your mind
i don't know if that'll happen
but i can't sit around and wait for you
you're an amazing guy
and i would LOVE to call you boyfriend
but for now we just have to be friends