ground zero

well,
i was feeling great
went over to the guys today
it was the first time
i've gone over there
and hoped he WASN'T there
i wanted to avoid him
like the plague
i went over there
thinking i'm going to ignore him
but half knowing i wouldn't be able to
so i went over there
he came to me
i did not do anything
i ignored him
he left
then he came back
he came to me
i felt like i was doing so good
then he started flirting
wrestling
things FRIENDS don't do
so it was time for me to bug
so i bugged him non stop
he was going to get sick  of me
for some reason
he kept saying
he was leaving for GVSU for the night
my guess is to see the guys in his band
i was actually relieved to hear it
it was time for him to leave
i had talked to my roommate about it
last night
and she said to be careful
cause i would regret it later
she's right
apparently we can't be friends
i talked to one of my guys
he said it was possible
he said he would get other outside advice
then if so
i should talk to him
after i had decided not to
the Lord has a plan
he knows what it's going to be
he's got it all under control
pray for this please!!
pray all is well with you all